So much for resolutions

That lasted til, what, mid-day Monday? J messages me, J2 texts, beautiful boy emails, M. texts… now I have a full week. Christ.

Saw the beautiful boy again last night. Mostly the same deal, but both of us far more sober. I do wonder how old he thinks I am. Since he hasn’t asked, I don’t feel that bad, but it does seem a bit deceitful. Glad he doesn’t stay over, I’m not sure he needs to see me in the light of day. Christ, he’s beautiful, and young, and smart. He’s exactly what I want, I just want one 10 or 20 or hell even 30 years older.

J wants a repeat with the girl, promised a better time. I’ll do it but maybe not this week. I’m taking tonight off — a beauty appointment and groceries being delivered — and seeing Tex tomorrow, and still have to fit in the horny J2, I guess that means Thurs for him.

I realized on the train last night that if I’m still actively seeing G (and I’m not sure at this point that I am), then I’m sleeping with five men. And occasionally a woman.

So much for resolutions!