Entries from November 2013 ↓

fireman wanted to see me the other night, called 10x in a row. I was too tired to see him, assumed he was pocket-dialing me anyway, but no, he just really wanted to see me. It’s silly how happy that made me. Tried to reschedule for tonight, but it didn’t work out. Funny how sad that made me.

this low chi thing sucks.

low chi these days. crappy times at work, my first poor performance review of my professional career. 100% of me wants to write it off because he’s an asshole, but there’s always that little voice that worries there’s a grain of truth in there. what if I’m just not that good any more? what if I never was?

need to refocus. thinking about selling the apartment – which I love and put a lot of effort into acquiring – so I can have some cash again and make some different career choices.

ugh. hope this passes soon.