well

still undecided about all this. j. and i still text most days and I’d love to fuck him again, but I suspect the novelty has worn off for him. or he’s just busy. hard to tell.

I need the modern girl’s guide to sex and etiquette. who the fuck knows how this is all supposed to work any more.

i go from elation at the attention (a text from him, a message on OKC) to complete depression if I don’t get any attention for a while. This can’t last.

tonight, flirty texts from m., finalized date with g. tomorrow, online chat w/the 28yo trainer, message from slutty guy who’s moving to nyc. lots of attention but still kind of sad over not seeing j.

i need to get over this.