but

on the second go, our condom broke. fuck.

The lad was so chagrined, deeply concerned that I was now going to have to take the emergency pill. but do I? I’m 46, in perimenopause, I couldn’t get pregnant if I tried right now. but since I’m really, really, not trying? should I take a Plan B? I’m worried about taking the hormones, worried about it making me sick. But seriously, should I risk it? my chances of getting pregnant under the best of circumstances are diminished by 55%. is that enough? how will I know? I haven’t had a period in 7 weeks. I guess I take a pregnancy test in a couple weeks to be sure.

or I wake up tomorrow and get the pill. I’ve put off the decision three days, it’s almost too late already. it’s tomorrow morning or wait & see.

fuck.