Taking one for the team

Finally hooked up with K. He sent me an invite through a dating site – kinda funny. I took it as meaning he wanted me to have no doubt of his intentions. Turns out he’s been in a rough patch lately. He seemed in need of some female companionship, so I stepped in.

Not so great, as I could have guessed. Didn’t like using a condom and in a spectacular lack of judgment, I agreed. Can’t do that again. (p.s. just determined not pregnant from before, do I have to worry again?)

He wasn’t so into fucking at all, though. Much more interested in pleasing me, which would have been nice if I’d been more sober. Finally had to tell him to hold it until morning… so he woke me up softly fingering me. Actually very nice – I’d already decided the only way out of this was forward. He was pleased I finally came but then immediately started up again, had to tell him once more to take a break.

Worried he actaully likes me. I really don’t want to repeat this.